Marmee
Monday, September 28, 2009
Monday
There is only 30 minutes before I need to be at work. Not enough time to go to the quilt shop and finish cutting kits. Not enough time to start sewing here. I find it frustrating that my free time is boxed in by obligations, and also frustrating that I don't look forward to work as much as I used to. I am indecisive over "cough". Is it viral or bacterial? What if it is Pertussis? Not the swine flu, since there is no fever or body aches. I don't know, but I have to decide to give antibiotics or cough medicine, or Tamiflu. It is not fair. Then the family has a big bill no matter what. I am not sure what I do is helping. If after twenty years, I still can't know for sure, am I good at what I do? Should I be doing it? It ties up my weekends, and the rest of my life is fit in around it in nooks and crannies. Do all people have moments of doubt? Is it asking too much to have all the answers? It would be more comfortable, but the surprise would be gone. Still, my job is more interesting that selling shoes, or groceries. I do get to work at the quilt shop between patients. I have a paycheck. I will go and do my best. Coffee helps.
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and mom, remember the patients. how nice it is for them to get to see you when they come. all my friends really liked seeing you if they had to come to the hospital for something. you make people feel listened to and taken care of. if i ever have to go to the hospital for something, i would very much like marmee for a doc. you're the beesknees. medicine is more than a diagnosis, and that part, you most definately can be certain about. you have a gentleness about you which is reassuring. :)
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